Fear

My heart
I need to guard it
I don’t know how you got in
I wish I could distract you so you wouldn’t see
But you see despite the darkness
And it scares me
My biggest fear is that you’d take a closer step and turn away
What ifs haunt me
What if I can’t
Overwhelms me
Paralyzes me in place
I can’t hold on to my thoughts long enough
To write them down
What if it’s not a dream
But a nightmare instead
What if you’re not really there
And I’m just imagining you in me head
What if it stays dark and tomorrow doesn’t get here
Then day breaks through the blinds
I realize it was just another night
I take a long breath
It’s an effort to start again

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